It has been soo loong...

OMG!

How time flew! It was in Jan 11 when I last penned down my thots and its going to be end Mar soon! And I meant, real soon!

Where have I been?

Besides busy with werk, I've been keeping really really a low profile rite now. Too much thots running thru this head every now and then. Astaugfirullah hal azim. Weathering the thunderstorm ain't an easy job. But I know Allah won't test me beyond my limits. Lying beneath those tests lied some sweetness and joy. Good things are indeed hard to reap so I do hope this bitterness in life would soon turn themselves into goodness.

Ahh..some serious stuff now. I think I need to shed some kilos now. I felt disgusted when I looked at myself on the mirror.Too many unnecessary spare partslah. I've been wanting to go to the gym during lunchtime every Wed but I kept forgetting to bring my shoes.Lame excuse, i know. And Nick has been telling me that the gym will be crowded on Wed and Fri so that actually added on to my hesitation. Nevertheless, I will force myself to go to the gym maybe next week? With the peak period in office, I dunno how I can manage that.

The PB result was out and I'm supposed to inform my boss on the grade I got for myself. Disgusting! According to her, its to check for consistency. I know she tried as much to give me a good appraisal but I think not much effort has been put in here. I've been with this unit for nearly 3yrs and with such grading from the management, I felt like giving up. Besides enduring with the mentally-stretch daily work, I've to tolerate her demands. It's no joke, I'm telling u. It's all about how I handle her and how that trust came about.Yes, I've aspired to seek challenges when I decided to leave my old office but never been in my dreams that I'll be put in such an environment. But again, Allah heard my prayers and I'm proud to say that I passed thru those obstacles with ease. Most of my colleagues were mesmerised by my tolerance level but I kept telling them the more challenges she posed to me, the more I'm gg to stand strong and take the heat!

Its 11pm and I thot I have told myself earlier that I'm gg to just spend 15-30 mins on the pc.I broke my promise and that's not good.

Till then, I shall make my exit and I hope that I'll be stronger tomorrow.

Welcome Onboard 2011 - A Delayed Telecast

Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah...my desktop is up and running again. Just as I was about to get a new monitor, my father's fren gave me one. Not a new piece but at least I can save a few bucks from getting a new one.

Welcome 2011!!! In fact I had wanted to list down my new year's resolutions on 1.1.11 but as u know...my desktop was down. Takde rezki for me to share them with you lah. hee hee. But to summarise, I wish that I would have better health and my relationships with my family, loved ones and friends would be strengthened, InsyaAllah. And not to forget, I hope to incline myself to ukhrawi - ibadah and iman. May the strength be with me.

Just today, my parents and I visited two people at the ICU/NUH. 

First was my cuzin who is in ICU since he is having trouble breathing. My heart pained to see him really making the effort to breathe. And he needs the oxygen mask to breathe too. According to my another cuzin, his condition today was better than  before.  Alhamdulillah. I pray that he will recover soon. When he's still well and if we met at family gatherings, I would usually spot him at one corner and we would only exchange smiles.  He's quite a quiet man. Take care Abg Tajud.

My family & I actually bumped into my dad's fren on our way to visit my cuzin and I was quite shocked when he told us that his wife is in a critical condition. I knew her personally since she never fail to come to my place every Hari Raya and furthermore my Dad teaches ngaji at their residence on Monday nights. According to the husband, she was having fever  on friday nite and just collapsed. When brought to the hospital, she went into a coma and they were informed  by the doc that her liver and kidneys may not be functioning anymore. When I saw her children teared, i felt like tearing too...what if the same scenario happens to my family. Can I take it? Cik Enab, my family & I hope that you too, would recover soon. 

Ajal & Maut ditangan Tuhan...manusia merancang, Allah yg tentukan. I have known some people who had slipped into coma and God has given them second chance to 'live' again. So, I do hope that these people would be given a second chance again?

I feel tired easily these days and seem to be running out of time. And my heart is still telling me - Jijah, its still not the right time. So when am I going to put the right time to into the right perspectives? Only time will tell. Not worth hoping for the sky when the sky is not even our reach.

Goodnite everyone.

The Strength is in Me!

Alhamdulillah, I managed to sneak from my bedroom and enter my second post in this 'new' blog.Haiya, still, I have not decided whether I should promote my blog in Facebook. My deep conscience is telling me not to. Or maybe, I shld soft-launch my new blog cume 1st Jan 2011? You decide lah. Even if I want to do a poll pun it wld just be you, me, yourself and I. hee hee.

Today is a hectic day for me. As much as I wanted to clear my work, I have to set aside time to assist my new SO. Seriously, I think she's trying her very best to cope with the work and at the same trying to adapt to my lady boss. Its not easy, I tell you. I have long come to a stage of being submissive and obligated.If you try to reason things out, thats it,you'll be in her blacklist and u'll foresee doomsday. Am I exaggerating? I hope I'm not but at times I do feel like giving up. But I believed Allah is with me and HE won't test me beyond my endurance level.

Even just now, one of my colleague was commenting on how fresh I look at 6.30pm, when everyone has started packing to go home. My secret? Internal happiness and of course my daily dosage of Habbatus Sauda. Ok, no worries, I'm not promoting the brand here but good things are meant to be shared, so y not I share this piecemeal of info right? By the way, I've been consuming these supplements for years and I can guarantee you, its worth trying. It can be found on the shelves of any Malay shops or toko selling traditional supplements. It costs only SGD6.50 otr if u go to jb, u can get it for as cheap as RM15. Give it a try and share with me your personal experience. =)

Talking about health /beauty products, for those who are experiencing pimples and rough skin...why not you give a shot on Safi Rania Gold products? Besides making my skin less oily, I think I'm fairly flawless than before (or was I all along flawless? hee hee) Belum cuba belum tahu. For myself I have been using the scrub and facial wash. When you bumped onto me next time, please don't forget to touch my face ok? On a sidenote, I don't really believe in spending too much on basic beauty care products. Afterall, our natural beauty exuberate from the heart and I believed the basic facial  care can be done in a simple and cheap way. Don't you agree?

Its past 12midnite and I better go before the owl hoots.

A New Chapter

Harlow!

It's not New Year by the way & purleeasse don't ask me to explain on the title of this post. Trust me.Its random.

Ok, whats up with the new blog...and new blog address? My old blog used to be called "godwillanswerurprayer"and I have used that blog address since Yr 2005. However, with all due respect to God, HE still answers my wishes and doas, its only that I wanna start on a new slate of my daily rants. So anyone who's interested in me aka Kaypoh-ing...will try to google "Jijah" and hiya...i hope u won't be disappointed. Maybe I should pen down Jijah, Jijah Riski, Nor Azizah...so that my blog will be in the search list.Ok, seriously, I don't think this will work but if u happened to stumbled on my humble domain...a WARM Welcome to you. Thanks for visiting and if u are aldy getting bored...I'm sorry. I'm not here to please u readers out there but more to share my innermost thots and feelings. Initially I wanted to password-protected my blog but the fact that I despised those bloggers who did that made me changed my mind. Oppps...anyway, I still respect those who password-protect ur blog. Its your rights. Yeah..its ur rights!!!! *humming*

Well oh well...how time flies and soon it will be New Year 2011. Ha ha. All u know this will be my first entry and last entry in 2010. Kelakar kape? Nevertheless, I will try to blog religiously. But pls don't set any high expectationlah. Ehh..how come I sound like there's really someone reading my blog eh? Anyway, I'm not expecting to have 1000 pple to hit my visitors' counter overnite and I'm still contemplating whether to promote my blog in my facebook. InsyaAllah...I will try to make a good decision ok.

Ok, I think I will need to end now before my Makcik Sipot switch on her radio. Oh, btw, when I reached office this morning (after a 2days mc last Thurs & Fri), I was surprised by this lil memo on my desk. It was from my "sweet" neighbour.

He nvr failed to make me smile. And he reminded me of Rena. 

I shall rest my case. Goodnite everyone!